... guess it all ends here......

i think it really ends here i guess... really.....

nt at this point actaully long ago bahx cox i found out i gt hurt too much at my own view....
i knew thing that i aint suppose to know cox i will hurt mi but i choose to know it knew every little thingz that really gt mi hurt rahhrahh told mi bout wad happen to u and a person that been so pek chek COX of u so i found out wad u said in other blog wasnt true and i decided to let it off once and for all maybe juz be fren i guess..... it came to light when i started to feel breatheless and fustrated cox i think it wad u did that made it happen......

guess that alll bye!!!!

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
9:08 PM

... bout these few days....

kk.... tues.... nth to do go kbox... den win motorola razr V3 .....


ytd...... aft skool go play cad den ppl find trouble wif us den nth lor shout shout den settle lor.... den aft they leave den we start trainin..... nw my thumb swollen.... gettin better le....

den today go pool aft get results den aft that go my hse there carpark train wif shaun and jj awhile den shaun wack my jaw but impact on another side of jaw near ear.... nvm thats alll.....


alll trainin are 4 self defence.....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
9:25 PM

....can i change back?

i wonder and is still wonderin now..... wad a fren i become......haix......
been another 4 days and i really dun wan to be that heartless.... cold guy.....been scoldin ppl in msgs of my confusion... nigel kena ytd han kena also ytd.....haix u kena the most i guess..... but den i dun wan to....
so sorri guys gif mi some time.... i dun wan to get ani involve but juz myself will do

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7:25 PM

??? oh ya so great to be back in skool on wednesday!!!!! whee!!!!!
reach skool den go hall sit down was smiling all the way den mama mel and those behind keep askin i ok anot thx 4 the concern!!!


den went 4 SL meeting den was juz 4 awhile den mi jj shuan lio and louis walk longer way den until klass the klass was so like whee Sh|ny's back haha in my heart was thinking wow im back miss u guys all!!!!!..... den was so high cox can go round shoutin? lol nt la actually is somesort of scarin ppl cox *step daught. fatin brought a fake lizard to klass den oni quacky ,jack and michhx scared den keep throwin here and there haha... den went hme cox tou qi(head seven? direct transalation)

den thurs very tired cox aft monday.... haf been conferencing wif Nigel(nigeria pig), Kel (4gt wad pig le),Nana (african piggy) haha one family of piggies childhoodies whee ... den ytd also conferencing lol den woke up late most of the time conference till 12 am ++++ cox we like it haha...... thats alll...... tcs alll

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10:01 AM

ARGH BORED!!!! BORING!!!!!!!
lol did i get influence? haha juz bored!!!!! i miss going to skool my klass my angels my daughters my mums my bros !!!!!!! and her!!!!!!!!!
miss chi lessons? cox i get to stare infront of my self the blank space to think of thingz and get to se her too ... lol im lame hahhahahaha i bored!!! DEAD bored some one help mi haha !!!! kk thats all ltr if gt mood den update again

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3:04 PM

haha im back frm 5 days..... im kinda crazy nw u can say....... high i think?....

these 5 days really okok lor im kinda disrespect mum cox i wasnt really accompaning her... lol..........
saw Nana yay childhood fren a bunch.......den on sat aft meetin go tour our kindergarden... so cool bt actuallu nt allowed if can den i put n pic nt so soon aft my hp fixed....... ltr den update again sorri....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
4:54 PM

Real sad.....

today woke up at 2.30am rush to hospital den see mum she's sufferin in pain difficult breathin... den stay there till 4+ dad tell us the bros to go hme1st den big bro made promise tell mum say we waitin 4 her at hme.......sobx......

den i slpt till 10++ go cut hair den bathe den juz nice mum reach hme den we talk to her cry but she cant talk cox she's in great pain..... se couldnt let go at 1st cox she worry bout mi alot.... den i talk to her the most cox i hate to see her suffer like that..... thus i will go ahead wif the thingz i told her....... and thus her life ends at 1.45pm today......

TO Mum: u'r strong for lastin this pain frm 6 mths to 2 years and 2 months..... beautiful 4 the thingz u did even the way u died mum.... peacefully.... eyes closed..... thx 4 all those thingz u done i know u still dun wanna go yet cox u wanna see the bros go to University...

Mum i Love u.....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
4:35 PM

up at this hour... 3.43am.....
didnt really get a slp.. nt even a nap i guess...... guys take care of urself ~14angels~

i really can go mute soon 4 personal reason that i seen through and didnt wanna get hurt in whichever way i know it will come......so if i didnt talk dun ask mi y....i so sad dun ask mi ...y i dun talk.....

to nuers.....(han,sya,izzy):
keas daddy really will nt talk alot.....han.....u got angry cox i headache and everything thx..... but i know ppl worry but i tried to nt make dem worry by pretence so it worked......
izzy&sya....erm can say both of u when wanna make mi happy really can.... but challenge...? lol joking juz kinda speechless...moodless....no interest to talk le.....kk..

to bros.....
i know im kinda noisy......irritatin in someways where everyone does......haix... thx 4 all the consolin....crappin and fun ... thx bro


take care... bye

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
3:48 AM

juz bout mi since long time ago wad i've been feelin lol


.....byez

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
4:36 PM

lol jackpot....

headache in chem!!!! gastric tooo... so "cool" man..........

nt in good mood but i seem to be in lol..... nth juz gonna post a lyrics up juz cox i love that song....quite old le i mean really quite old le

A1-Heaven by your side

CHRISTIAN:] YOU AND I, CANNOT HIDE
THE LOVE WE FEEL INDSIDE,
THE WORDS WE NEED TO SAY.
[MARK:] I FEEL THAT I
HAVE ALWAYS WALKED ALONE.
BUT NOW THAT YOU'RE HERE WITH ME,
THERE'LL ALWAYS BE A PLACE THAT I CAN GO.

[PAUL:] SUDDENLY OUR DESTINY
HAS STARTED TO UNFOLD.

[BEN:] WHEN YOU'RE NEXT TO ME
I CAN SEE THE GREATEST STORY LOVE HAS EVER TOLD.

[ALL:] NOW MY LIFE IS BLESSED
WITH THE LOVE OF AN ANGEL.

[BEN:] HOW CAN IT BE TRUE?

[ALL:] SOMEBODY TO KEEP THE DREAM ALIVE.

[BEN:] THE DREAM I FOUND IN YOU.

[ALL:] I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT LOVE
WOULD BE THE STRANGEST THING TO ME

[BEN:] BUT WHEN WE TOUCH, I REALISE
THAT I FOUND MY PLACE IN HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE.

[PAUL:] I COULD FLY, WHEN YOU SMILE.
I'D WALK A THOUSAND MILES
TO HEAR YOU CALL MY NAME.

[BEN:] NOW THAT I HAVE FINALLY FOUND THE ONE
WHO WILL BE THERE FOR ME ETERNALLY
MY EVERLASTING SUN.

[MARK:] SUDDENLY OUR DESTINY HAS STARTED TO UNFOLD.

[CHRISTIAN:] WHEN YOU'RE NEXT TO ME
I CAN SEE THE GREATEST STORY LOVE
HAS EVER TOLD.

[ALL:] NOW MY LIFE IS BLESSED WITH THE LOVE OF AN ANGEL.

[BEN:] HOW CAN IT BE TRUE?

[ALL:] SOMEBODY TO KEEP THE DREAM ALIVE.

[BEN:] THE DREAM I FOUND IN YOU.

[ALL:] I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT LOVE
WOULD BE THE STRANGEST THING TO ME.

[BEN:] BUT WHEN WE TOUCH, I REALISE
THAT I FOUND MY PLACE IN HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE.
THAT I FOUND MY PLACE IN HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE

[ALL:] HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE,
HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE,
HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE.

[BEN:] WHEN YOUR NEXT TO ME,
I CAN SEE THE GREATEST STORY LOVE
HAS EVER TOLD.

[ALL:] NOW MY LIFE IS BLESSED
WITH THE LOVE OF AN ANGEL.

[BEN:] HOW CAN IT BE TRUE?

[ALL:] SOMEBODY TO KEEP THE DREAM ALIVE.

[BEN:] THE DREAM I FOUND IN YOU.

[ALL:] I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT LOVE WOULD BE
THE STRANGEST THING TO ME.

[BEN:] BUT WHEN WE TOUCH, I REALISE
THAT I FOUND MY PLACE IN HEAVEN BY YOUR SIDE.

[ALL:] NOW MY LIFE IS BLESSED
WITH THE LOVE OF AN ANGEL
SOMEBODY TO KEEP THE DREAM ALIVE.
I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT LOVE WOULD BE
THE STRANGEST THING TO ME.

[BEN:] BUT WHEN WE TOUCH,
I REALISE THAT I FOUND MY PLACE IN HEAVEN
BY YOUR SIDE.

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
4:29 PM

... speechless on somethings......

haix cold hands came back today wif headache too......
which is a signal to mi on something that i wil be changin on myself...... nth lar...

today headache luckily is aft i finish doin geog ppr den the time aft i finish ppr headache till very crazy...almost stand and leave the room.... but juz suffer in pain over there la dun mind...


thats all take care peepx


By the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY AiSyah!!!

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
5:15 PM

WOW!!!!

finally done wif my new skin took hours doin it i redo it 4 like 4 times.....


damn busy argh!!!!!!!! goin to study geog ltr chiong arh!!!!!!!!!hope all the note i haf can help mi.......
tml gettin some more hahaha thx lio 4 the note....
TO her: Thx 4 the note u printed in advance .... hope it can help mi in geog but i juz hope to pass as many sub as i can hope all if nt oni fail Comb humans i hope thx 4 everything......

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
7:28 PM

Some explaination to be done guess bout my emotions these few days?

i started on like wednesday 27/9/06

wad day izzit?..... nth
aft skool went to lot 1 wif angels..... took 172 which i haven been takin 4 like 1 month?

so throught the trip images of past juz flash back so fast as if im in a car accident i mean it came back very fast.... especially at Sunshine place... the place where i almost cried at that time....
maybe u dun rmb but i so wad happen on the bus ..... stays deeply in my heart.....

that emotional state brought mi through till today...
thurs.... i had trainin so i try nt to get affected
but on fri i cant help thats y i didnt talk much.....and juz ytd went to study aft my biathalon....
had juz a little conflict wif u thats wad it seems to mi...... ended up i didnt talk alot again..... sorri bro i cant gif comment bout wad u said cox im kinda emo......so.... up till now i cant get u of my mind?..... maybe nt even durin exam periods cox i tell everyone juz concentrate on studies nw but im juz nt doin that cox i cant everyplace that i went bound to haf some past mermory wif u
i cant move on animore tho i tried and im nt i nvr moved on since that day

and btw these few day tears keep flowin down my eyes 4 no reason..... might be 4 u i dunnno i juz dun wanna hurt u animore but if i haf the chance i will try my best nt to again nvr again......

wo hai shi dui ni you gan jue.....


bye peepx

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8:42 AM