guess mi kinda feelin better now?



i think i took another road that can make mi happy frm the road that i took in the start and den the road shaun ask mi to try and i found 1 more dat i will try

may it bring mi a better day or not up to everyone out there and my own sight of thingz... sadness will come no matter so i wanna go asaingst sadness and fight 4 happiness?

if i can i will so that i wont be freezing cold(but i like that feelin) ,moody, unsociable and fustrated i guess haha.... okok thats all bye need to go hospital ltr....den go out wif bros...

angels a msg to u guys....: i kinda find somethingz wrong so hard days are coming i guess bye the rest i will try to help in all the way i can and nt affect ani of ur feeling i mean influence.... bye


bye bye bye and bye take care peepxxxxxxxxx...........


i decided that my road would be a lonely and and sole waiting 1... k? bye.....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
12:42 PM

guess mi kinda feelin better now?



i think i took another road that can make mi happy frm the road that i took in the start and den the road shaun ask mi to try and i found 1 more dat i will try

may it bring mi a better day or not up to everyone out there and my own sight of thingz... sadness will come no matter so i wanna go asaingst sadness and fight 4 happiness?

if i can i will so that i wont be freezing cold(but i like that feelin) ,moody, unsociable and fustrated i guess haha.... okok thats all bye need to go hospital ltr....den go out wif bros...

angels a msg to u guys....: i kinda find somethingz wrong so hard days are coming i guess bye the rest i will try to help in all the way i can and nt affect ani of ur feeling i mean influence.... bye


bye bye bye and bye take care peepxxxxxxxxx...........


i decided that my road would be a lonely and and sole waiting 1 k bye.....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
12:42 PM

today kinda bored... also sd la cox im juz depressed...


4 no reason i was depressed den shaun nvr come today den mi poa so bored at least daughter sya sit beside mi she dun wan mi bored thats y thx daughter.......

lol im depressed and i am might last 4 few days i guess......


bye... take care peepx

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
6:34 PM

today i kinda not V good la....





cox my head juz hurts la ...aft recess....

but dumbo tell mi that his fren cry den his hand turns to aircon cox annann tell mi that his hand like aircon.......

den dunno wad happen la..... dumbo juz hand cold all the way.... and den my head pain all the way im like strugglin to stay balance lor ...

lol but im kinda happy too...

MI AND JJ!!!! a BOMBER team hahaha....

info on brigde 168g... able to withstand 20kg of weight and maybe even more i guess...
we won the other grp of olivia,paul and zilong..... thiers weight 300+g oni withstand till 7.5kg den crack den 10kg break sorri but its really sad that ur project broke but now we 5 are goin to work all together as 1 WHOLE TEAM GOOD LUCK ON THE COMPETITION DATE 9/9/06(SAT)at ngee ann POLY.... bye


my head hurts... heart... too

and im kinda moody tho

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
7:48 PM

wow finally im done....


i done 2 blogs today .. one my blog skin and 1 is for Dumbo and his fren(share?) ....


haha kinda tired today but ltr goin out wif daughter izz n shaun bro and jian yang hope we will be able to fetch the other 6 angels if we can...

bye take care peepx hope u like my new blogskin...

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
9:58 AM

WOW now at COm lab... BB stuff ...

all the way till 12noon

i end up dun need to do anithing thx dumbo's fren 4 ur choc im still hungry tho thx aniway...


wowowow kinda bored tho listenin to lifestylr of the rich and famous on youtube....

damn bored........
take care peepx

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
11:02 AM

DAmn Tired.....

haix.... since thurs.... been so tired cox thurs mi and JJ do bridge tillmi jj and mr aw were the last to leave skool den ytd jj tell mi he didnt slp at all oni slpt till 3 plus..... haha

ytd:fri..... 6 angel goin to ATC camp.... kinda miss them all la cox its the 1st time i wont want ppl to go 4 camp there something tell mi and izz to tell them dun go leh..... haix nvm took last pho of JJ and louis but lazy to put up...... ytd sniffin EPOXY the whole day den im lyk glue sniffin?.... and hafin gastric + dizzy= to feel like faintin sia.... but aft the whole bridge lucky dumbo's fren gif mi food haha oni fries but ot made me feel better frm gastric........ nvm

now goin to BB soon ltr goin out wif shaun to destress by pool hha gtg bye... still V tired

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
7:18 AM

SO long nvr update le haha sad thingz happen to ppl around mi sometimes to mi too..... but its ok i guess


erm wad do i haf to say....


haiz tml gt POA test den i 4gt to bring hme nvm den miss teo say want open holiday assisgnment 4 mi today den nvr so nvm.........




monday..... chem common test i feel V unsafe bout the test la... den tuesday gt results.... den


i feel V sad den i almost cr den nvr den aft lesson end i cried den daughter-syah also cry... daughter izz affected den she V sad la...... sorri i keep affectin ppl.... haix den bro shaun single again le...but he's still waitin cox he does wad his heart tells him to......

today kinda tiring day i guess cox i went to tiong bahru great world to but b'dae presents....... den its the 1st time in my life that i search 4 present and so worried that i cant find


end up i went to cck aft goin back to skool to search den leftat bout 8 i guess or 7.55?....
den damn bored on the bus lar....haha den i guess i haf nth to say le lar..... tired damn tired... bye peeps and take care....




OH YA....... damn excited for 14angels to create our jerseys hahah damn excited...
14 ANGELS from above
#01 junjie
#02 izzaidah
#03 cheinyie
#04 jianyang
#05 zuhrah
#06 louis
#07 jacklyn
#08 shaun
#09 lionel
#10 shahira
#11 junhao
#12 boonyik
#13 fatin
#14 chaulung


GUESS THAT ALL NITEZ......... ANGELS LOOKIN 4WARD to EVERY MOMENT TOGETHER.

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
10:03 PM

hahahah Inter-UG footdrill comp SJ won but BB broke our own record....








but still kinda annoyed cox cant be in the main squad le but also happy cox still gt pizza hut treat... bleah.....haha


den i now online awhile ltr goin 4 treat le....V tired dun wan go but still go juz to eat



today didnt go debatin klass cox went NUH to cisit mum den go hme den waited to use com... haha
haix nowadays kinda high i guess and today i yawn the most la.... cox im kinda tired aft so much thingz


okok today too tired to write too much nxt time k...
take care peepx.....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
5:55 PM

i think now im all alone ... lolz wad am i sayin...


im alone at hme since i came back...i went through the whole thing since a certain day i re-read
ur blog once more ...and now im still alone at home ... thought runnin wild....


i wun make thingz back i wanna make it new......i won listen to others crap le la but i know which are gd which are nt le.... i won settle down till i die i guess or the battle wif the devil inside mi is over .... ANGELS sorri if the devil won 4 the time bein and it might be long i try to be as happy as i can....... but itz nt a true 1 ......wad can i do when my thought run wild..? i cant do anithing cox i feel totally helpless, dead or even a person wifout feelins except sad? and being crazy.......


an example...


today POA lesson shaun went up to do qn den he did thing that i find funny den suddenly burst into laughter den whole class look at mi damn shockin la....

den aft he came back mi and shaun came up wif a new show feturin mr shaun(pig face) and mr PANG(pronouce wif lot of noise i mean V loud)(the wildboar face)

the show is called write BIG BIG den the convo starts damn creative la den aft poa went back to klass den keep talkin to shaun den reach back door of klass almost bang into the door


that all i can write... patience is all i can gif.......
and that is alll i really can do 4 the time....
thought runnin wild ... and its like im gonna be a total icey cold person le....


ice runnin through mi means ... wad?



nvm bye....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
5:51 PM

ytd was a okok..

actually nt V good la down wif fever den nvr go BB den aft ok le den go out...


V good 4 chattin day...


left home at 3 reach jp and 315 den go lot 1 wif shaun.yong yi and lio den lio go find yt.. yongyi mi and shaun follow awhile den yongyi go home i follow shaun to cut hair walk ard yew tee shoppin mall den he went hme den i loiter round his estate there 4 bout 45 min .... den go 4 dinner den ate oyster mee sua add vinegar dunn how to speel.... can nt nice la den aft that go arcade play 4 bout 1hr 45min if im nt wrong... den sat at the slope wif bro talk and talk till 11 den lio came back frm music lesson den chatt till 11.30 den chiong home on taxi ....had great time chattin guys...

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
11:52 AM

guess all ends to be bad...

strong headache on thurs..... den fri still gt den today im down wif fever... mr poh called mi ask mi y i told him down wif fever la... but den nvm.... unstable mood juz goes on and on these few days dun feel like eatin dinner but den i juz eat la... won die....been dosin on strepsils dun care juz eat la i know wads in it and wad will happen .... been in unstable mood ever since 1/8 its kinda long i guess but ytd was V serious la chi lesson i suddenly V high den suddenly V sad nvm its ok...


ok take care peepx... frm unstable mood to fever wif unstable mood.... dotz... lame.... bye

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
8:43 AM

think i kinda mad ...

nowadays i dunno wads happenin la

mood damn unstable guess it wont be stable 4 quite sometime ...

haf and still will be waitin cox my heart tells mi so thus i wont and nvr will gif up ....

today went to NUH wif 3rd bro and Papa...to see mum.... V saddenin... not gonna say wad happen to her la.... might be visitin her nxt week aft skool bahx.... i scared i will be V sad lor.... too much saddenin thing happen le lar....I CANT TAKE IT ANIMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


SAVE MI...... i juz too much stop here sorri head goin to burst V soon its really V pain la....


take care.... peepx....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
8:46 PM

Guess i found out that....

im juz expectin too much le.....


aft ytd i really figured out that im juz expectin too much n its way too much.....

and its like i cant expect too much cause it all ended cox of mi ... nvm juz haf to say ....
sorri......

listenin to a nice song soothin and touchin ....

1000 words


1000 Words
(Music: Matsueda Noriko & Eguchi Takahito, Lyrics: Kato Kenn, English adaption: Brian Grey, Vocals: Jade from sweetbox)

I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
You words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distance then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears 'cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain
When I turned back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid
To say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me, I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore
To hide the doubt
When I turned back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough
To know it's not too late

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever

A thousand words...

END
....
.........
........... thats all take care peepx i try to stay normal....~

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
11:26 AM

ermzz wad am i gonna say 2 day update?
....

ytd.. skool ndp damn pek cek... sec 1... feel like shoutin at dem ... keep fidgetin den... dun wan say la.. mr poh tell mi dun scold dem talk to them share wif them my views..... but den if i talk nicely den some offend mi den they die liao lor.... so wicked...

den cultural expression.... quite ok oni la... oni keep eatin the warhead the sour sweet till my tongue sore i mean V pain la now ok le bahx.... the tap dance was V cool lor and the P6 gal is DAMN DAMN DAMNDAMN DAMN DAMNDAMN CUTE!!!! mi and shuan keep sayin that.... den aft cultural expression went hme 1st den meet wif izz,fatin,zurah,shahira,by,jj,jh,jy go do hw at frontier den we decided to go esplanade watch fireworks okok oni lor but i still think national stadium1 nicer haha...reach hme bout 11 den slpt at 11+ den today woke up late 4 NDP OH NO but did nt report latre 4 parade haha reach hq juz nice..... at ndp we wnt 4 juz 3 time den no more trainin le cox they say V good le but den was damn bored la ... keep thinkin bout her haix.... stuck at SIS till 6 plus lor but also V sad la cant see the bunch of NDP guys le damn fun to be wif u guys ndp ROX oni at the last day nt the trainings...actually w shld be wif shaun dey all eatin supper 1 den too late den nvr go liao....
thats all i dun think slpin V early today
take care peepx///

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
11:48 PM

hahaks haven update since monday den its like i dun wish to touch this blog? juz joking...


deep down in my heart im sad but im juz happy in the face actuall u can see the sadness la...

weewee saw it thats y she olweas ask mi i ok anot.... thx but im obviously will say yes
guess i dun want u guys i mean all of u to worry la....

ytd aft ndp im kinda tired i guess my whole body aches den when back to hq fall in to get fun pack la... den POC mr liu wore the cap and on the light its damn cute lor i mean 4 his size wif the small cap wanted to take pic but too far away den mr wong leavin BBhq soon sad he might be strict den he good i mean realy good officier okok back to aft ndp mi and jared meet up wif shaun,pris,boon,jj,yang .. i smell lor... i mean really la den in the mrt i haf to stay away frm them lor cox i really sink la.... oni in mrt other den that not V obvious on the outside den shaun V dunno wad that word lar den i kik his ass den he V pain den i laugh 4 like 2 to 3 mins? or even lesser till my stomach V pain den i was laughin like a freak la... den went to clementi to makan den we left 4 home jared and jj left and took bus 99 left mi pris,mi ,yan,boon and shaun la....
we took mrt den aft JE left mi and yang den its like i V bad la keep throwin everything i haf to him i mean talk.... den reach jp we walk hme la walk to busstop wait 4 my bus den keep talkin talkin but denii haf to thx him....

haf to thx boon too cox we shared both our sad thingz past... la den thats all

take care peepx....

im HERE and ALWAYS WAITING
12:25 PM